Floorwalking Task

At last! I've got my choice of restdays! Saturday-Sunday off, who wouldn't want it? Though my shift starts at 3am, I have no problem with that as my old teammate's sched is 12am to 9am so they'll just be 3 hours ahead of me - which means, we can go on lunch together. Everything was so perfect until Jana texted me saying there is a new thing going on with our LOB. I was so excited and at the same time scared of what changes would that be. I've waited for her to sign in to Facebook so we could chat. And at around 4PM, I heard the shocking news...

We will now be the Floorwalker!!! OMG! I am not ready for this and we didn't even signed up for this! I was really shocked to hear that. That means we will have a team to support - almost 15 agents in each team. We now have a TL to assist and more responsibility awaits us. I know this is a dream of mine, being able to go up the ladder to be a TL and soon to be a Manager...but it happened too soon. I am not ready nor prepared for it. Lots of inhibitions and hesitations are running in my mind. What if I don't know the answer to an agents question? What if I was not able to live up to the TL's expectations? What if I fail?

Good thing, God was able to remind me of what He said when things like this happens in our lives. I and Jojo attended Bro. Bo's mass on TV and that's when God spoke to me. When things are uncertain and you feel that you are inadequate. It's all in Romans 8:28 - "And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God." I'm sure that whatever happens...this is a good thing. Lord thank you for letting me share this Bible verse to my friend Icey who is going through a rough time right now.I'm happy she appreciates it, even showed it on Instagram.

Praise you Lord! At all times!

Reconcilliation with Mama

For one and a half months, Mom and I is in war. Well, it happened one time when we're not able to unlock our gate. Were living in the same subdivision and at that time, she texted me that she will be going to my place to plant some orchids which she purchased earlier that day. I wasn't able to text back because my celphone doesn't have any credits and because of that, I totally forgot all about it since I just came from work. So what happened was we slept early that day forgetting about mom's text message. That's it! She went to my place knocking out loud saying bad things against us. She thought we don't want her going to our place at all. She is shouting so loud and I'm sure our neighbors were able to hear our whole convesation.

It's really a painful experience for me as I feel I don't deserve being treated that way. If not because of my sister Ate Ems who is now based in Singapore, who told me to just keep it cool and just let it pass because Mama is not getting any younger.... I won't initiate our reconcilliation. But I'm happy I did. I was able to free myself from anger and resentment against my mom whom I love so much. And because of that, I've decided to ask her to eat out at Trinoma after my shift. When I saw her I kissed her and hugged her saying I love and I miss her. I know she felt that way and she was also so happy seeing me again after almost two months. It's a fun experience being with Mama and spending time again with her.

As what I've posted on my Facebook account, I now know why we often clash...it's because were similar in many ways..and I know that this love/hate saga that we have is what makes our relationship stronger. Thank you Lord for giving me this chance to show my love and respect to my mom and I hope we wont have such terrible fight ever again.

Farewell Malentod!

Yesterday I've met with my bestfriends Malen and Ruthie because it's like Malen's last few days here in Manila before she goes to Singapore to try and see her luck. We've been talking about this for quite sometime now and I didn't realize she would have enough courage to pursue it. I know she's brave and independent so she will definitely survive, unlike me who's been so dependent on my hubby I can't even commute alone! Anyway, we met at Eastwood and had our lunch at Seafood Island. It'll be on me and Ruthie as our farewell treat to dear Malen. We had a lot of fun chicka as usual and I've brought them up the good news that I have been given a different task in the office. I've also learned that Ruthie was already promoted as a Supervisor so it's really some sort of a celebration for all of us. For all the good things that happened to our professional career and to our life in general, but before we went to eat lunch - Ruth gave us a present... a scarf! She's been always generous to us, she's like an ate to both me and Malen though she is the youngest. Haha! Maybe it's her very strong personality that makes us feel she is always in control.

After a hearty lunch at Seafood Island..we strolled around a bit, just to have some exercise after that glutonny bonding moment, lol. We went to a Sony shop as Ruth wants to buy a digicam. Went to a Samsung shop as well as she is planning to buy a Samsung Note II worth P36,000. I said "what?!" and asked her to think about it first while Malen said "Go for it". At one point, I guess I've realized what's different in us when it comes to money matters. Even if I have P36,000 to spare for that piece of device, I would rather think of some sort of an investment for it. I won't splurge on any electronic device unless I badly need it. I can buy something that would give me the same kind of pleasure for a cheaper price...it doesn't have to be that expensive. That is the reason why I don't expose myself on high end material things...I don\t want to be on a position that I won't be able to sleep because of an attachment to material things..and I'm happy that I was able to firmly hold that principle. I'm happy to live a simplier and happy life. Maybe it's just me because I have my own priorities. Maybe it's different for Ruthie as she does have money to spare.

I remember one chapter in Bro. Bo's book...it talks about attachment to material things. When his parents gave him his first car, it was an old car with no stereo, no aircon and yet he was so ecstatic and very grateful to his parents because they gave it to him. For sometime he felt he had the best car there is. He never sees any flaws on it and feels very grateful that he had this car. But when his friend asked him to test drive his brand new top of the line car, he felt his car is just a piece of trash. Since then, all the minor issues on his car is very evident. He wants a new car, not the old car he's been driving for quite sometime now. The same car he've learned to love and cherish. The car who was once the apple of his eye. I'm not saying we should not upgrade or aim to have greater things, but we should only do this if we have an extremely abundant spare of money... like Ruthie hahaha!

After strolling down the Eastwood Mall, Ruthie announced that she will treat us with a dessert since she has been recently promoted so off we went to La Creperie and have eaten what else but a crepe hahaha! I don't recall what its called but it consists of a chocolate and mango, that's what I remembered. It's quite an experience as its my first time there. Maybe I should expose myself into those type of restos in the future. Lovely experience!

My hubby fetched me at around 8PM and after so many picture takens...we finally bid my farewell to Malenski. She will try to see if she could get a job and she promised us that we can come and visit her in her apartment after 8 months. I hope I can save enough for our Singapore adventure!

 Lord, bless her and please give her the desires of her heart. I will definitely miss her.

In Getting Out of my Comfort Zone

"Sometimes you need to get out of your comfort zone and do things you want the least to be able to get the things you want the most..."

I believe it's true. For almost seven years, I have always been afraid. Afraid of failure. That's my worst nightmare...that's why I remained on where I am for sooo many years. I haven't failed...but I haven't succeeded as well. 

Just recently, a new role was offered to me by my former superior. It's to be a part of specialist group.  The job description would be different. We'll gonna handle chats, supcalls and callbacks from tier1 agents. I won't deny the fact that I would love to be  a part of that team...I've been doing the same old duty for seven years, I think it's high time for me to challenge myself and try a different role. There's only one thing that would hinder me from applying for that position, my friend Ice. She's been my wavemate and my teammate for almost seven years. We never left each other's side. I admit, the reason why I've been able to stay for seven years in my present company is partly because of her. She's like my comfort zone and I know whatever happens here...she got my back. 

The day I was informed that I was shortlisted, I asked her if its okay with her. I know she wants the best for me...and though I can feel it that she doesn't want to be away from me...she agreed saying "I know this is what you want so go...". I was extremely happy to hear that. Though I would definitely miss her, I know we could get over it as we are still just in one company. Right after I transferred to a new team, there has been a chain ovents that happened. Their team has been dispersed as our previous TL was offered a different position and what's worse is that she was transferred to a team in which the TL is someone she doesn't like even before. And yesterday, it just happened. She told me she will be resigning. 

I felt bad... really bad. I felt in a way, I am a contributor to her decision to leave. If I haven't left her, she would still get the support that she badly needs. I hope and pray she does what's best for her. Maybe this is a blessing in disguise, maybe this is just a test of faith. But whatever it is, I hope God would leave her to the right path where fulfillment and happiness lies...

My 33rd Boitday!

Since papa has been hospitalized, I stopped thinking of how I want to celebrate my birthday. Before I would think of maybe having a party at home, would ask my brother’s family to come over and I’ll cook some dishes. Or maybe I’ll invite my friends in the office or college or high school barkada to come and see our new house. Well probably have a dvd marathon overnight while doing our tomaan session, we could go jogging in the morning or go swimming in a nearby resort. All of those plans are set aside and my world stopped moving since Papa had a mild stroke days before my birthday.

Good thing he recovered. He is now able to walk and somehow talk. We can now understand what he is saying though he needs to say it slowly. That’s the reason why I’ve decided to just treat them out on my birthday. No more fancy celebration. I’ve realized that this should be a celebration of my dad’s fast recovery rather than my birthday. So off we went to SM centerpoint. Me and hubby came at exactly 1PM. Weve waited for them for just about ten minutes and at last, I saw my Papa waiving outside the mall about to come in. He came with my stepmom, my brother and my stepmoms niece. We had our lunch in the foodcourt because we want to take advantage of Papa’s senior citizen card. In fairness I saved almost P200 pesos for the meal. Each of us, six in total, chose a meal which is less than a hundred pesos… minus the 20% discount for senior citizen, it only sums up to around P450 for the 6 of us!

After lunch, weve decided to watch a movie…well, dad at first doesn’t want to go because he thinks it would cost me a lot of all of us will go but since there is a Movie Fiesta in SM Centerpoint which will only cost us P25 each, he agreed to it. So off we went and watched “The Cabin in the Woods” which is a horror/thriller type of movie. Its not so bad and it’s kinda interesting naman so Papa and the rest of the guys enjoyed it. After the movie, I asked them to go home ahead of us as I and hubby will be buying our merienda. We went to the famous Aling Banang in San Juan City which is just about two streets away from SM Centerpoint. We bought pancit bihon, pancit canton, spaghetti and palabok and on our way to their house, we also bought maja blanca and puto to complete the meal. We ate at the store and had a hearty laugh. I really feel blessed to be able to give joy to and happiness to Papa and to his family. We came home at around 8PM already. Sooo tired. It’s such a fun and fulfilling day for me. This is the most fulfilling birthday so far and the most humble of all. It only costed me less than a thousand bucks and I get to make 6 people happy. Only proves that the best thing in life if not free...not so expensive haha!  Thank you Lord for all the blessings and for letting me celebrate this day with people who loves me.